Complicated

2004-07-23T12:45:00.000-04:00

What's behind those eyes? (what type of eye do you have..8 outcomes!)
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2004-07-12T18:15:00.000-04:00

Name: Katie
Sex: female
Parents: Harry & Sue
Siblings: Beth & Zach
Pets: Dog & 2Cats
Height: 5’
Hair color: Brown
Eye color: Green
Shoe size: 5
Sexuality: straight

-favorite-
Music: Punk
Song: Lostprophits Lucky U
Sports: Hockey
Subject: Bio
Store: Pacsun
Clothes brand: Roxy
Food: Cup Cakes
Place: Car
State: Maine
Country: USA
Tv show: One Tree Hill, Gilmore Girls, Summerland, 7th Heaven, Everwood
Movie: Any 80's movie
Website: dunno
Book: A Time For Dancing
Animal: Cats
Memory: soooo many not enough room
Relative: Kara & Josh!!!!!!!!
Actor: Chad Michael Murry
Actress: Katie Holmes
Car: Porsh
Candy: Reeses
Ice-cream: Phish Food

-personal questions-
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: naw
If not.. Do you have a crush: yeah
Their name: Ehhh....
Hottest boy/girl in your school: hmm
How far have you gone with someone: hmm my business thanks
Are you a virgin: yes
If not.. When was your first time: Refer to questions above
With who: Refer to questions above

-this/that-
Pepsi/coke: Pepsi
Bush/Clinton: Clinton
Dog/cat: Cat
Sunrise/sunset: Sunset
m&m/skittles: Skittles
Chocolate/vanilla: Chocolate
Late/early: Late
aol/aim: aim
Punk/rap: Punk
Dance/sing: Dance
Softball/baseball: Neither
Hockey/football: Hockey
Soccer/swimming: Swimming
Track/field hockey: Field Hockey
Light/dark: Dark
Coffee/tea: Neither
Love/lust: Love
Van/station wagon: Van
BMW/Mercedes: BMW
Volvo/saab: Saab
Simple/confusing: Confusing
Wondered/amazed: Amazing
Rain/sun: Sun
Phone/online: Online
Running/walking: Walking
Bike/roller blades: Bikes
Watching tv/being outside: Outside
Movie/Show: Movie
yellow card/something corporate: Yellowcard

-how do you like the following bands/musicians-

Something corporate: good
Yellow card: love em
Three days grace: love em
AC/DC: SO SWEET!!!!!!!!!!
Metallica: good
Incubus: awesome!
Sublime: awesome!
Hoobastank: hate em
Britney Spears: urge...
Christina Aguliera: urge...
Taking back Sunday: love em
The format: ??
Brand new: good
Clay aiken: hate em
Ruden studdard: hate em
Kelly Clarkson: has her days
System of a down: good
Nirvana: ok
Matchbook romance: dont know
New found glory: LOOOOVE EM!
AFI: good
All-american Rejects: good
The ataris: LOOOOOVE EM!
Atreyu: dont know
Slipknot: ok
Mushroom head: dont know
Blink 182: LOOOOOOOOOOVE EM!!!!
Dave mathews band: ehh
Eminem: hate em
50 cent: hate em
Ja rule: hate em
Outkast: hate em
Greenday: ok
John mayer: hate em
Lost prophets: great
MxPx: good
Nickleback: pretty good
Papa roach: okay
Pink: sometimes
POD: ok
Saves the day: good
silver stein: huh?
Simple plan: ok
Good charlotte: great
Sum 41: good
Story of the year: Love em
The darkness: pretty good
The used: okay
3 doors down: okay
Third eye blind: nastayy
B2K: hate em
P Diddy: hate em
Alicia Keys: ehh

-lasts-
Person you touched: secret
Person you hugged: Tans
Person you kissed: my lil cousin mikey wen i left hahaha
Person you dated or date: touchy subjecth haha
Person you loved or love: ...
Person you talked on the phone to: boo
Person who imed you: boo
Person you got mad at: my dad
Person you got jelous of: someone..
Person you laughed with: beth
Person you laughed at: myself
Person you drove In a car with: Jess
Person you watched a movie with: Tans
Last movie you watched: Harry Potter
Last thing you ate: PB&J
Last thing you touched: my mouse
Last song you sang: vindicated
Last song you danced to: i just burst into dance lol
Last song you heard: vindicated
Last time you took a shower: earlier today
Last book you read: ummm things you carry
Last time you did homework: umm during school
Last time you went to a school function: sball game wit jessie sho
Last time you played a sport game: like 3weeks ago
Last time you won a sport game: like 3weeks ago
Last time you hit someone: ummm the drunken bike rider

-who-
Makes you laugh the most: friends
Makes you cry the most: family
Who hurts you the most: zach he punched me
Who helps you out the most? friends
Who are your best friends: christina and jess
Who do you love: no1
Who is the most trustworthy: christina
Who is the smartest: my sister
Who is the clumsiest: jess
Who is the most athletic: christina
Who is the most annoying: no comment

Who do you fight with the most: my parents
Who do you hate: too long of a list
Who hates you: dunno
Who doesn’t understand you: shane haha
Who is the slowest: mee
Who is the fastest: dunno
Who is the hottest: ??
Who is the ugliest: mee haha

-would you-
Kill someone: no
Hurt someone on purpose: no
Make up rumors about someone: no
Use someone: no
Smoke pot: never
Try something you think your not good at: yeah
Purposely try to piss someone off: yes haha
Make up a survey: no
Bungee jump: no thanks
Sky dive: nope
Mountain climb: nope
Live by yourself: no id get scared haha
Tell a teacher to fuck off: no
Eat dog food: nope
Egg a house: no
Play Chinese red light: no
Vandalize a building: nope
Take a vow of silence for a whole week if you believed in the cause: i couldnt not talk for a week are you nuts?!
feed the poor if you didn’t get anything in return (community service hours included): yeah
-other questions-
Do you have any regrets in life? yes
Who is someone you miss? Josh
If you could be anywhere else in the world right now where would it be? Va beach visitin josh
Is there someone your friends with that you wish you weren’t? nope
Where is the best place you’ve ever visited: maine
What song could you listen to over and over again and not get sick of? i dont wanna know
Who is the craziest teacher in your school? maguire
What is one thing you want to accomplish before the end of the year? lose weight
What is one thing you want to accomplish before your married, if your getting married? get a job
What is one thing you want to accomplish before you die? alot
If you were ever in the news, what do you think it would be for? hopefully something good
Who is one person you know could kick your ass? beth
One thing your looking forward to during summer vacation? relaxation
Do you believe you can love two people at once? nope
Would you forgive someone who lied to you? yeah as long i know theyre sorry
You forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend if they cheated on you? ya... but wouldnt go back into a relationship
What would you rate this survey from a 1-10 (10 being the best)? 4
Now that this survey is over, are you happy it’s over? yes

2004-06-27T22:38:00.000-04:00

1. What do your closest friends call you: Katie, Kate
2. What is currently playing as your ringtone: Eye of the Tiger
3. What songs are stuck in your head: None right now
4. What is your favorite book of the year: A Time For Dancing
5. What is your favorite movie of the year: What A Girl Wants
6. Who is most annoying right now: my sister
7. Who could you not live with out: Kara
8. What are your favorite possessions: my teddy bear
9. What is the last thing you bought: gas for my car
10. What did you do today: Went on the comp and then kara came over
11. What are you looking forward to: saleep
12. Who did you last kiss: duno
13. Who did you last hug: Mi madre
14. Who did you last sing to and what song: Get out Jojo
15. What are you wearing: a pink shirt with a boy tank under it, blue jean cut off shorts and adidas sandles
16. What do people say is your best quality: duno
17. What do people say is your worst fault: duno
18. Name any cool or weird or just normal passions/talent: uhh...
19. Have you ever fallen in love? no
20. Who did you get this kick ass survey from: my cousin

2004-06-25T10:09:00.000-04:00

001. ] Name: Katie
.002. ] Gender: GiRl
.003. ] Location: Townsend
.004. ] School Macot: Patriot
.005. ] Height: LiKe 5'00
.006. ] Hair color: Brown
.007. ] Eye color: Green
.008. ] Race: White
.009. ] Is your hair long or short: Medium
.010. ] Repping: whats repping?
.011. ] Zodiac sign: Virgo
.012. ] How many languages do you know: one and a half (i kinda noe french)
.013. ] Nationality: Irish and Polish
.014. ] Piercings you have:
.015. ] Piercings you want: more in my ear
.016. ] Tattoos you have: none
.017. ] Tattoos you want: dont want any
.018. ] Today's date: June 25
.019. ] The time: 10:12

» S C H O O L «
.020. ] Are you still in school: Yes
.021. ] Did you drop out: See previous question
.022. ] Favorite grade: 11th
.023. ] Least favorite grade: 8th
.024. ] Favorite teacher : Mrs. Paterno
.025. ] Least favorite teacher: Mrs. Pothier
.026. ] Favorite subject: Bio
.027. ] Least favorite subject: French
.028. ] Do/did you buy lunch or bring it: brought
.029. ] Play any sports on the school's team: Ice Hockey
.030. ] Are/were you popular: i dunno
.031. ] Most humiliating moment: ya like im gunna tell the whole world

» F A V O R I T E «
.032. ] Number: 12
.033. ] Clothing brand: Weathervane and Aero
.034. ] Shoes: Kswiss and Nike
.035. ] Saying: You fruit
.036. ] Tv show: One Tree Hill and Gilmore Girls and Everwood and Sumerland
.037. ] Sport: Ice Hockey and Lacrosse
.038. ] Vegetable: Carrott
.039. ] Fruit: Apple
.040. ] Movie: Breakfast Club or 16candles
.041. ] Magazine: Seventeen
.044. ] Scent: Cocconut or for a guy CURVE!
.045. ] Ice cream flavor: Cookie Dough
.046. ] Color: Pink!!
.047. ] Season: Summer
.048. ] Holiday: My Birthday!
.049. ] Type of music: Punk
.050. ] Thing in your room: My CD player
.051. ] Band: Yellowcard or Dashboard
.052. ] Books: A Time For Dancing
.053. ] TV channel: WB or MTV
.054. ] Junk food: Chips
.055. ] Overall food: Chicken
.056. ] Flower: Pink and Yellow roses
.057. ] Fast food: Wendy's salades
.058. ] Restaurant: Wendy's
.059. ] Shape: Star
.060. ] Time: Night
.062. ] State: NY
.063. ] Boys name: Jordan
.064. ] Girls name: Hailey
.065. ] Mall: Phesant Lane
.066. ] Car: Pink Porshe
.067. ] Word: GAY!
.068. ] Month: August
.069. ] Disney character: Piglet
.070. ] Scary movie: i love too many to choose

» T H I S OR T H A T «
.071. ] Rock or rap: RoCk
.072. ] Rock or pop: Pop
.073. ] Rock or r&b: Rock
.074. ] Rap or pop: Rap
.075. ] Rap or r&b: Rap
.076. ] Rap or metal: Rap
.077. ] Pop or r&b: Pop
.078. ] Pop or metal: Pop
.079. ] r&b or metal: Metal
.080. ] Selena or J.lo: Selena
.081. ] Hot or cold: HoT
.082. ] Winter or summer: Summer
.083. ] Spring or fall: Spring
.084. ] Shakira or Britney: Britney
.085. ] MTV or VH1: MTV
.086. ] Football or basketball: Basketball
.087. ] Skiing or snowboarding: Snowboarding
.088. ] Rollarblading or skateboarding: Skateboarding
.089. ] Black or white: Black
.090. ] Orange or red: Orange
.091. ] Yellow or green: Green
.092. ] purple or pink: Pink
.093. ] Inside or outside: Outside
.094. ] Weed or alcohol: Alcohol
.095. ] Cell phone or pager: Cell
.096. ] Powerpuff Girls or Charlie's Angels: Charlie's Angels
.097. ] Scooby doo or dino: Scooby Doo
.098. ] Tattoos or piercinqs: Tattoos
.099. ] Coke or pepsi: Pepsi or my uncle Jim would kill me
.100. ] Flowers or candy: Flowers
.101. ] Tall or short: Tall

» H A V E / W O U L D Y O U E V E R . . «
.102. ] Pictured your crush naked?: Cant say I have
.103. ] Actually seen your crush naked: Naww
.104. ] Been in love: No
.105. ] Cried when someone died: Ya
.106. ] Drank alcohol: Yup
.107. ] Lied: Yup
.108. ] Eat crap for $1,000,000: EwW...No
.109. ] Steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: NO thats bitchy
.110. ] Lie to the police: No
.111. ] Run from the police: No
.112. ] Lie to your parents: Yup
.113. ] Walk up to a stranger and kiss them: No
.114. ] Walk out of a restaurant without paying: No
.115. ] Flashed someone: No
.116. ] Told the person you liked how you felt: No
.117. ] Gone to jail or juvi: No
.118. ] Stolen anything: No
.119. ] Wanted to kick my ass for making this so long: Yes!!!
.120. ] Kicked someone's ass: No
.121. ] Broke a beer bottle: No I dont drink Beer
.122. ] Gotten into a bar, under-aged: No
.123. ] Kissed someone of the same sex: Eww no
.124. ] Gone on a road trip: No
.125. ] Gone on vacation without adult supervision: Yup
.126. ] Been to a concert: No
.127. ] Been to another country: No
.128. ] Talked back to an adult: Always
.129. ] Got pulled over: No
.130. ] Got in a car accident: Not yet....
.131. ] Broke a law: See previous q's
.132. ] Given money to a homeless person: Ya
.134. ] Tried to kill yourself: No
.135. ] Cried to get out of trouble: Yup
.136. ] Kissed a friend's brother or sister: No
.137. ] Kissed a brother or sister's friend: No
.138. ] Dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and let someone eat it anyways?: No

» Y E S OR N O «
.195. ] Are you a vegetarian: No
.196. ] Do you like cows: Ya
.197. ] Are you a bitch: Ya
.198. ] Are you artistic: No
.199. ] Do you write poetry: No
.200. ] Are you a fast runner: Deff Not
.201. ] Can you ski: Yes
.202. ] Are you British: No
.203. ] Are you straight: Yup
.204. ] Are you stupid: Well with my report card ya
.205. ] Are you fat: Kind of
.206. ] Are you short: YA!
.207. ] Are you tall: Hell nooo
.208. ] Do you own a hot pink shirt: O ya
.209. ] How about orange pants? No
.210. ] Are you evil: No
.211. ] Is Britney a whore: Yea
.212. ] Am I annoying you: YA!
.213. ] Are you secretly from another planet: Yup
.214. ] Did you ever touch someone else's private parts: Kicked Nate in the balls hahaha

» P R I V A T E «
.139. ] Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: No
.140. ] Do you have a crush: No... not at the moment
.141. ] Do you love anyone right now: No
.142. ] Have you ever been in love: No
.143. ] How many people have you kissed: Dunno
.144. ] Who was your first kiss: No comment
.145. ] How many hearts have you broken: Dunno
.146. ] How many people broke your heart: None
.147. ] Best quote to sum up love: “It Suxz Ass”
.148. ] So what is your bf/gf/crush like: See previous questions
.149. ] Do you have a picture of him/her: See previous questions
.150. ] Please post it if you do: ok
.151. ] Do you have a picture of yourself: Ya
.152. ] Please post it if you do: how about?? NO
.153. ] Do you go by looks or personality: BoTh
.154. ] Ever kiss a friend: Ya
.155. ] Are you still friends: No
.156. ] do you smoke: No
.157. ] Do you smoke weed: No
.158. ] Crack, heroin, anything else: Do I look stupid
.159. ] Beer good or beer bad: BAD
.160. ] Are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers: Yup
.161. ] Do you like smirnoff ice: Ya

» W H A T D I D Y O U D O «
.215. ] Last birthday: Party
.216. ] Yesterday: Babysat
.217. ] Last weekend: Tansey came overr
.218. ] Christmas: Spent it with the fam
.219. ] Thanksgiving: Fam again
.220. ] New year's: Party
.221. ] Halloween: Mall
.222. ] Easter: Hung out wit the fam
.223. ] Valentine's day: Nothing

» T H E L A S T . . «
.224. ] Thing you ate: A Donut
.225. ] Thing you drank: Orange Juice
.226. ] Thing you wore: Pj's
.227. ] Place you went: Band Concert wit the kids I babysat
.228. ] Thing you got pierced/tattooed: Ears
.229. ] Person you saw: Mi Madre
.230. ] Person you shared a drink with: My BB
.233. ] Song you heard: Dawson's Creek Theme Song
.234. ] Person you hugged: Colin
.235. ] Person you instant messaged: Boon
.236. ] Person you laughed with: LeeAnn

» N O W «
.237. ] What are you eating: Nothin
.238. ] What are you drinking: Nothing
.239. ] What are you wearing: Pj's
.240. ] Any shoes on: No
.241. ] Hair: Pony Tail
.242. ] Listening to: TV
.243. ] Talking to anyone: Yup
.244. ] Are you pissed I made this so long: Yes

» O P I N I O N S«
.245. ] What do you think: BoUt Wat??
.246. ] About boy bands: Queer
.247. ] About flag burning: huh??
.248. ] Of the war on terrorists: Support the troops not the war!!
.249. ] About suicide: Depressing
.250. ] About abortion: It should be your choice
.251. ] Where do you think you'll be in 10 years: A job hopefully
.252. ] Who do you think you'll still be friends with in 5 years: Umm my best girlies

» F I N A L Q U E S T I O N S «
.253. ] I want: This to end
.254. ] I wish: I had plans tonight
.255. ] I love: My friends and Family
.256. ] I miss: Joshie and Nicole
.257. ] I fear: Not being friends with the people i love in later times
.258. ] I hear: The TV
.259. ] I wonder: oo wouldnt you like to know
.260. ] How do you know its love?: I dont
.261. ] If you could be any kids character, who would you be: dunno
.262. ] If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would you eat: Wendy's
.263. ] Do you remember any of your dreams: Some
.264. ] Do you dream in color or black and white: Both
.265. ] Do you admit when you need help with a problem: Sometimes
.266. ] Can people read you like a book: Some people
.267. ] What's your biggest fear: Ya ok let me tell the whole world
.268. ] Do you talk a lot: I dunno
.269. ] Are you afraid of clowns: No
.270. ] Do you like spiders: No
.271. ] How about grape kool-aid: Ya
.272. ] Can you drive: Yep!!!
.273. ] Are you spoiled: Ya...
.274. ] Are you anti-social: No
.275. ] Do you see dumb people: Ya
.276. ] Do you see dead people: No
.277. ] Any last words: Can we be done?
.278. ] Now that this is over, what are you going to do: Shower

2004-06-21T12:50:00.000-04:00

Which Breakfast Clubber Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

2004-06-20T08:45:00.000-04:00

Wow this is sad that these survay things are keeping me entertained for this long... o well

f r o m t h e t o p.]
name:: Katie
birthday:: 08/30/86
birthplace:: Concord
current mood:: tired
current taste:: nothing
current hair:: pony tain
current clothes:: blue shorts and a pink shirt i dont care if i dont match i just woke up
current annoyence:: getting up early and couldnt fall back asleep
current smell:: none
current thing you ought to be doing:: eating b4 hockey
current desktop picture:: bruins b
current favorite band:: dashboard,nfg
current book:: none
current cd in stereo:: Dashboard
current crush:: ??
current favorite celeb:: Joe Thornton
smoke:: no
do drugs:: no
have a dream that keeps coming back:: ya
remember your first real love:: never has happened
still love them:: refer to question above
read the newspaper:: no
have any gay or lesbian friends:: no
believe in miracles:: ya
consider yourself tolerant of others:: ya
consider love a mistake:: yes
like the taste of alcohol:: most kinds
have a favorite candy:: no
believe in astrology:: no but i read them for entertainment
believe in God: dunno
have any pets:: unfortunatly 2 cats( only like one) and a dog (but ryans kidnappin her :) )
have any piercings:: yes ears
have any tattoos:: naww to painful
hate yourself:: not at the moment
have an obsession:: no
care about looks:: I like to think no... but prolly
love life:: sometimes
single or taken:: single
ever been in love:: does this question keep repeating itself?

2004-06-19T10:39:00.000-04:00

name:: Katherine C.
birthday:: 8/30/86
birthplace:: Concord, MA
current mood:: tired and stressed
current taste:: OJ
current hair:: Wet I just got outa the shower
current clothes:: NM shorts and a white tourney shirt
current annoyence:: Im sick
current smell:: cant smell
current thing you ought to be doing:: Getting Emily a card and directions to her casa
current desktop picture:: The bruin's B gotta love em
current favorite band:: dashboard, sugarcult and modest mouse
current book:: Dont have one
current cd in stereo:: dashboard
current crush:: wouldnt i like to know
current favorite celeb:: Joe Thorton
smoke:: neverr
do drugs:: negative
have a dream that keeps coming back:: yuppers
remember your first real love:: no
still love them:: havent had one
read the newspaper:: no
have any gay or lesbian friends:: none that have said anything
believe in miracles:: ya
believe it`s possible to remain faithful forever:: i have complete doubt but if someone proves me wrong...
consider yourself tolerant of others:: i try my best
consider love a mistake:: YES
like the taste of alcohol:: umm not beer but some other stuff is good
have a favorite candy:: reeses peanut butter cups yummy
believe in astrology:: no but i read them for entertainment
believe in God: I dunno?
have any pets:: unfortunatly i have two cats and a dog (but ryan's "kidnapping" her)
have any piercings:: ears.
have any tattoos:: no to painfull
hate yourself:: not right now
have an obsession:: umm no
have a best friend:: best friendssss
care about looks:: It doesnt matter unless you cant even look at them
love life:: wat? o ya I forgot I dont have one
first crush:: Ryan Hayward first grade
first kiss:: Dont remember
single or taken:: singleeee
ever been in love:: no
do you believe in love at first sight:: nope
describe your ideal significant other:: good sense of humor, someone i can trust, at least average looking treats me good

[ a p p e a r a n c e. ]
hair:: brown
eyes:: green
height:: 5'00

[ l a s t t h i n g y o u. ]
bought:: shorts
ate + drank:: OJ and a sundae
read:: an IM

[ l a s t p e r s o n y o u. ]
talked to:: Janesy
IMed:: Gangsta
hugged:: Brendon
kissed:: ??
had a serious conversation with:: Jess
yelled at:: my mom
befriended:: huh?

2004-06-17T11:40:00.000-04:00

-- First Name: Katie
-- Last Name: Clark

-- It began on: 8/30/86

-- Birthplace: Mass
-- Current That lives in: A hick town in mass
-- Eye Color: Green

-- Hair Color: Brown
-- Righty or Lefty: Righty
--Aim or Msn etc: aim

[ your favorite ]
-- Music: any kind :)

-- Cartoon: none
-- Color: Pink
-- Magazine: Seventeen

-- TV Show: To many to count

-- Song at the Moment: Memory Sugar cult

-- Food &Beverage: Enchalada and OJ
-- Subject in School: Bio
-- Weekend Activity: Hockey chill wit my friends;)

-- Ice Cream Flavor: Fudge Swirl or Cookie Dough
-- Roller Coaster: Superman
[ what is ]
-- Your most overused phrase on aol: hahahaha

-- The last thought you go to sleep with: I duno
-- favorite feature of the opposite sex: Eyes

-- The Best Name for a Butler: Bob

-- The wussiest sport: Golf
-- Your best feature: My Weirdness lol

-- Your bedtime: wheneva

-- Your greatest fear: breakin my neck in hockey

-- Your greatest accomplishment: an A in bio

-- Your most missed memory: not being friends anymore

[ you prefer ]

-- Pepsi or coke: Pepsi
-- McDonald's or Burger King: Neither

-- Single or group dates: Single
-- Adidas or Nike: both

-- Chicken nuggets or chicken fingers: Fingers
-- Rugrats or Doug: Doug

-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: neither
-- One pillow or two: one
-- Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla

-- Hot chocolate or hot cocoa: Hot chocolate
-- Cappucino or coffee: Eww
-- Boxers or briefs: Boxers
-- Take a shower everyday? Yes
-- Do you think you've been in love?: No
-- Want to go to college? : Yes
-- Like high school?: Usuallly
-- want to get married?: yea
-- Believe in yourself?: sometimes
-- Have any tattoos/where?: nope

-- Have any piercings/where?: ya my ears
-- Get motion sickness?: nope
-- Think you're a health freak?: deff not

-- Get along with your parents?: my mom
-- Like thunderstorms?: deff
-- Age you hope to be married by: 25

-- Number and Names of Children: 3 2boys and a girl names i dunno
-- Where do you see yourself in five years?: Gettin my masters in college biatch
-- Descibe your Dream Wedding : umm to far away

-- How do you want to die?: painlessly
-- What do you want to be when you grow up?: Teacher
--What country would you most like to visit?: Italy

[ opposite sex ]
-- Best eye color?: Green
-- Best hair color?: Red or brown
-- Short or long hair?: not a skin head
-- Best height?: alot taller than me... doesnt take much tho

-- Best articles of clothing?: kakii shorts and a tee
-- Best first date location?: dunno

-- What facial feature do you find the most attractive?: Eyes

[ other ]
-- The last time you slept with a stuffed animal?: i cant remember

-- How many rings until you answer the phone?: as soon as i can get to it

-- What's on your mouse pad? :Dell sign

-- How many houses have you lived in?: one
-- How many schools have you gone to: 1 school system

-- If you were stranded on a desert island and you could only take one thing(not person) with you what would you take?: laptop or cd's in a cd player

--The best time of your life so far?: Cant say
--First grade teacher's name: Mrs Matson
--Last words you said: Here

--Last song you sang: Hands Down By Dashboard Confessional
What's in your cd player?: Dashboard in my car Yellow Card, A mix and another mix in my room and modest mouse on the comp

What color socks are you wearing?: socks fuck no!

What's under your bed?: boxes of cloths

What time did you wake up at today?:6:00

Where do you want to go? : The beach
What is your career going to be?: Teacher
Where are you going to live?: A city
How many kids do you want?: 3
[NOW]
Current mood: a good one

Current music: modest mouse

Current taste: nachos
Current hair: medium

Current clothes: navy diver shirt and kaki shorts and sandles and my bathing suit my bruins hat and my star necklace and hoop earings and all my rings and heart braclet

Current annoyance: my messy room

Current smell: Nachos
Current longing: to go out somewhere

Current desktop picture: Bruins

Current fingernail color: natural

Current hate: o just the usual bamcob and the drama

Current favorite article of clothing: my b's hat and star necklace

Favorite place to be: Hockey games

Time you wake up in the morning: 6 for school then wenever on the weekends

Do you believe in an afterlife?: yeah
How tall are you?: liek 5'00"

Current favorite word: i dont have one

Favorite book(s): A time for dancing
Favorite season: Spring
1 MINUTE AGO: huh?
1 HOUR AGO: Pickin the sis up from school
1 DAY AGO: In school

1 WEEK AGO: Dance rehersal
1 YEAR AGO: Dunno

I HURT: Dick wen he deserve's it

I LOVE: My friends

I HATE: The usual

I FEAR: Breakin my neck and drowning

I HOPE: to do good on my finals

I FEEL: Sick

I LISTEN: To music and tv

I HIDE: i dunno

I DRIVE: a hyndie
I PLAY: Hockey and dance

I MISS: Andrew
I LEARN: from my frineds
I KNOW: to dance

I WAIT: for nothing

I NEED: to....
I WANT: to....

2004-06-15T17:15:00.000-04:00

Great weekend!!! Loved it! Girls soo much fun! I miss you guys already!!! :( We must get together this summer!! Campin at Molly's maybe haha!! woohooo! Love ya! the long nights paid off!! well other than that heres a lil survay thingy...

WHATS THE BACKGROUND ON YOUR COMPUTER?: Bruins

WHATS ON YOUR BOOKSHELVES?: books

WHATS UNDER YOUR BED?:boxes of cloths

WHATS ON YOUR MIND?: finals

WHATS ON YOUR WALLS?:wall paper and pictures of friends

WHATS ON YOUR DESK?: on this one theres cd's and pics and my purse

WHATS ON YOUR BED?: bed stuff and a fan

WHATS ON YOUR BODY?: tank top shorts u kno the deal

WHATS IN YOUR MOUTH?: OJ

WHATS ON THE STEREO?: Modest Mouse

WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR TONIGHT?: Goin to the bro's

WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR TOMORROW?: Goin to Hampshire Hills wit my girls

WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR THE WEEKEND?: movies mall the usual

WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR LIFE?: college and teaching

WHAT ARE YOU EMBARASSED ABOUT?: why would i even say?

WHAT ARE YOU STRESSING ABOUT?: school

WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO?: Summer 04 its gunna b carazy

WHAT ARE YOU DREADING?: finals (seeing a pattern here?)

WHAT THINGS ARE YOU AFRAID OF?: drowning

WHAT THINGS DO YOU LOVE?: Dance Hockey my friends

WHAT DO YOU NEED TO SURVIVE?: my friends, music

WHAT CAN YOU LIVE WITHOUT?: Finals and stupid people that say they'll be friends wit u still but wow look at that?

WHAT ROCKS YOUR WORLD?: crazy stuff i do wit my friends

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?: important people WHO LIE TO YOU!

WHAT MAKES YOU SHY?: embarrisment and speakin in public

WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE WRITTEN ON YOUR TOMBSTONE? SORRY THATS A BIT MORBID!: She was a good kid and will be missed

^ ya i was bored

2004-06-06T21:40:00.000-04:00

Ya so good weekend... All I can say... Friday was Okay... Babysat then slept over their house... Ya is all I can say... Then saturday came home went to dance which suxed but then the real fun started after... Came home... Showered... Then went to the mall for 5hours with Beth Kara Lydia and Mikhela... Talked to the cell phone man for a long time... Its Ok Lydia hes not hott but we still <3 u... Then I came home and got online and up comes a box its Bonnie!! So we decided to go see Harry Potter... But I never realized how close I live to Fitchburg cause I got there like 30min befor Bonnie haha But I got to sit with the old neighborhood crew minus Marc o well... Then today went to Oakmont Graduation... It was cute... Sad seeing Dustin and Tully graduate... Even sadder how Tully is goin 2 Florida for the Navy really big sad face... Then it was out to Friendlies wit Andrea Ashley Sam Sam and Jane... Good times... Well This week will be hetick well Im out buhbye

2004-05-31T18:54:00.000-04:00

Ya so... I dont care about school anymore... It was kinda an insentive to do good to get away from my f-in family but no my grades arent good enough to get far enough away... Really blows to know that 3years of work plus senior year will be a waste of time... All I realy wanna do is get out of school and not have to do anything... I just want to fall under and never come back... I wont miss anything... Nothing... I hate how Im so depressed... I hate everyone right now... I cant seem to be around anyone anymore... I come and sit on the computer and look at all the people I used to be so close with and now that Im not... O well I g2g buhbye

2004-05-26T19:41:00.000-04:00

With this new CD I just got I found myself thinking of you... It feels like I wrote most of the songs because its exactually what I think... I find myself always thinking of you... When Im at dances at other schools wishing it was like the fall with you at the dances... When Im drivin in the car with BB and his friends just thinkin of how the old days where wen we went to the car for saving from the weird and going to our own little world... I find myself seeing you and your new "friend" and wishing what happened we were so good... Now I find myself trying to escape seeing you at all costs... I see you in the halls and stare down... I feel like shit because I thought I found a new person but no I dont know anymore...

I just need summer... I need time to clear my head and get away from all of this... This way I can become happy... Camping... Hampton... Old Orchard... One year party... Josh and Marty coming up... 18th Birthday... Im going to be happy... Im not going to be sad Im moving on...

Also to you... you nasty man looking bitch with boobs and make up get over yourself people think your boyfriend is gay now what is up with that?? You a stupid bitch and no one likes you except your "bestfriend" maybe if you got your own fuckin personality then you would have more friends but probly not cause you soo fuckin annoying! JUST DIE! I HATE YOU!

Family = Stress

buy the avril lavinge cd people!

2004-05-12T20:23:00.000-04:00

Ya... Well there are only two things I wanna write about right now...

Im sick of all this bullshit fighting you both are my friends your fighting over a stupid fuckin guy that is probably just laughing at what trouble he can wind up next and try to make his "horrible" life sound better... Well get over it... Both of you... Its not worth it... Why do you hate her and you've never even talked to her... You hated your "best friend" for soooo long and then you gave her a chance... Why cant you just give Andrea a chance... If not for you just try to get along wit her for me... Who cares what Tom says... You always talk shit about him anyways... Why do you care... Whatever be stuck up and act like you used to say how you hated how people act... Be a fuckin hipocrit...

On the other hand... *You* make me soo happy... The random phone calls just to see how I am.. Its great and I love it... I hope this "getting to know each other" goes on for awhile... a long while... I dont want anything to ruin this... Even my leaving for the summer... Everything will work out in the end...

Well thats it..

2004-05-10T17:23:00.000-04:00

Ya so this weekend was the best weekend ever... recap...

Friday... Already was pumped 4 the top 40 obv. then when I got the call from Andrea and Colin cant explain the excitement goin through my body!! I was soo happy to see them!!! Ive missed them dearly... Then it was a fun filled night of makin people jelous! Really happy about that... And making fun of people... The best was singin to Colin haha you kno you love it!!!

Saturday... The day was boring just kinda sat around waitin for the night to begin... Thats when the fun started!! woohoo!! First we meet Andrea and Ashley two of my favorite oakmont people everr at Market Basket!! All I gotta say is let the games begin!!! It was the funniest thing listenin to them make fun of work obsessed people hahahaha!!! Then off to the carny!! wow did that sux!! O well... Then we decided lets crash at Dick Baumers and kid nap him!! opps Ya good thing Ashley completely misses the drive way... Then showed Ashley and Andrea the prom pics.. HAHA good laughs come out of that one... Then off to Friendly's for some fun... Makin Dick nervous talkin about tampons was soo funny... But then we got the phone call that said Andrea and Ashley werent going to be joining us thats ok cause it was for a good drunken night... Then at Friendly's Mikhaela and Lydia meet up wit us... Mikhaela decided to come out of the closet... HAHAHAHAHA great times...

Sunday... Kara's confermation party... That was like a family reunion... Caleb your gettin old dude... Great to see you again... Even though It dont seem like were 8years apart... You know if you were a teacher and got a class full of girls just like me that would make your school year!! Mikhaela and Lydia were there... Cant wait for the road trip... Dan's the man!! HAHA signs woohoo!! Lets kill the little boys!! OK! O ya but I skipped my hockey game opps I forgot...

Today... Suxed woke up... Went to school for french and part of history then went home... The second I walk in and my dad asks whats wrong I run up stairs and barf my brains out.. It was gross... So I have been stuck inside it suxz!!!

2004-05-08T11:12:00.000-04:00

Feeling much better... Last night was good for me!! Andrea and Colin showed up made it a kazillion times better!!! Great laughs making fun of people!! I missed Colin hadnt seen him in awhile.. My girls what would I do w/o you!!! Excuse me can you please be quite... Carrie: THIS is me being quite!! hahahaha gotta love it!! Andrea and Colin sorry I couldnt go to the party *sad face* next time we'll have to parrrtay!! haha well Im out buhbye!

Dance better not ruin this mood *happy face*

2004-05-05T20:30:00.000-04:00

Ya... This is hard... I feel like Im being such a bitch... Its what I have to do tho... You made this decision not me... We could have been just friends... Why did I have to pick that night to stop being a weenie... Just my luck... O well it suxz... But at least I can still be friends with the girl... I hate this feeling... O ya and stress has takin over my body... But thats about it...

3days till saturday... *happy face*

2004-05-02T20:25:00.000-04:00

Well its truely over... you can have him... Its not worth any of it... We cant even look at each other in the halls anymore... Sad how we cant be friends anymore... You will be missed... But if things dont work out between the two of you this time I wont be there to confert u... I wont be the one who will run up to u in the halls and give you a hug because you just had your heartbroken again... I wont be that person... I cant... I wont...Its to hard... We've been runnin around in cirles and it MUST stop!!! You played your mind games... You've had your fun... Your an asshole an I cant believe you could do that... You cant even come talk to your friend that Im around... How nice is that? your an ass and I hope someone shows this to you so you know it... Im out buhbye

2004-04-25T12:07:00.000-04:00

I miss you. Plain and simple. Why did I fuck up? Now you have someone new. Thats all I have to say Im a fuck up.

2004-04-21T15:10:00.000-04:00

10 Bands/ artists youve been listening to lately...
-Yellowcard
-Sara Evens
-The Starting line
-Early Novemeber
-The Ataris
-Blink 182
-Dashboard Confessional
-3 Days Grace
-Story of the Year
-Cold

9 Things you look forward to
-Hockey
-Summer
-18th Birthday
-Josh coming up
-End of school
-College
-Hampton
-Camping
-Senior Year 05

8 Things you like to wear
-Levi's
-Umass hockey sweatshirt
-Dangly earings
-Bad Girl shirt
-I love trouble shirt
-Sandles
-Heals
-Im grumpy pants

7 Things that annoy you
-Stupid people
-Tall people
-Chewing with your mouth open
-Liars
-Really smart people
-Wanna b's
-Cheaters that are surprised with their grade

6 Things you say most days
-Freak
-weird
-wicked
-are you joking me?
-ya ok watever
-GAY!

5 Things you do everyday
-Listen to music
-Go online
-Talk to Kara
-Eat
-Dance around

4 People you would want to spend more time with
-Josh
-Andrea
-Britt
-My big bro

3 Movies you could watch over and over again
-Dirty Dancing (the original)
-What a Girl Wants
- Ferris Buelers Day Off

2 Of your most favorite songs at the moment
-Only One *Yellowcard*
-I hate everything about you *three days grace*

1 person you could spend the rest of your life with
-NO ONE I GET SICK OF PEOPLE IF I SEE THEM EVERYDAY!

2004-04-19T21:27:00.000-04:00

Everytime we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Every roomate kept awake
By every silent scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still dont missed you yet
Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

Only when I stop to think about you
I know
Only when you stop to think about me
Do you know

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me

I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

^my fav.

As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you die right now
You know that I'd die to
I'd die too

You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
Still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does

Until The Day I Die
(Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
(Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
So tell me why this hurts so much
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do

Until The Day I Die
(Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
)Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Yeah I'd spill my life!!!
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!!

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But we made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But we made the same mistakes

Do you need this, as bad as i do?
And do u need this, as bad as i do?
Yeah, do you need this as bad as i do?
Yeah, do you need this as bad as i do, as i do?

^yup good song

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

^another good one

^dedicated to the asshole

2004-04-19T19:55:00.000-04:00

Everytime we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I havent missed you yet
Every roomate kept awake
By every silent scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still dont miss you yet
Only when I stop to think about it

I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU
WHY DO I LOVE YOU?
I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU
WHY DO I LOVE YOU?

2004-04-18T23:21:00.000-04:00

Ya so... The weekend was WICKED fun!!! Started off early! woohoo *happy face* I couldnt get my mind off of *you* though... Why I am this pathetic... I hate myself for this... Why did we have to do the same thing in the fall? Why cant things just work out? Why couldnt they just be like a TV show and be perfect... Well its not!! No family is.. No life is.. No friend is like that! Im gunna be the first person to make a TV show about how peoples life really suck and how unperfect they are!!!

2004-04-14T17:13:00.000-04:00

I dont know how you do it... However mad I am at you I cant seem to stay like that for more then awhile... I think Im more mad at everything... I cant think straight anymore... I feel like Im falling and I cant get up... No matter how hard I try... It suxz... At least I have my friends through all this... Not the type of friends that are at school that are there just to talk to... I mean the ones that could care less if you came to school looking like shit and feeling like crap and will be there for you... Not the people that ask whats wrong because they already have heard from someone else and just want to know that they heard right... I hate those type of people... Well now Im out buhbye

2004-04-14T15:46:00.000-04:00

I hate you... I hate what youve done to me... I took down my shield and this is what I get... Thanks asshole but no! After that we cant go back to being just friends... Its not my style... At first you made my day then lets crush it... I love going to bed pissed off on the verge of tears... How do you have the power of that over me? I hate that I dont want you to have that power... I cant even look at you in the halls or in homeroom... As much as Im mad at you... Im more mad at myself... Its not all your fault... I didnt have to go over... I didnt have to let you do any of that... Im so mad at myself... This doesnt help with my breaking point at all... I hate you... I hate me... I hate how we can never go back...

2004-04-13T14:34:00.000-04:00

I love knowing that we will only be friends... At first I thought that it would be too hard... Seeing you with your friends in the hall... But when I see you and you smile at me I know Ill be ok in the long run... Even seeing you with your girlfriends isnt so bad... Ive been gettin used to it... I always know you'll be there if I need you to turn to... I love how we can joke around about stuff... Knowing none of it will ever come true... Even the drunkeness makes it all better... You are truely one of the greatest people I know... You have been there for me for so long... If you went away I dont know what I would do... Even though you think Im just a innocent girl Im not... What little you know about me... But thats ok.... I like people not truely knowing my past... Its good... Then I can be the person I wanna be and not the person I was... YOU are one of the only people that gets me... I dont know how you see it... I dont know how YOU dont care how dorky or goffy I am your still there to be my shoulder to cry on... You come when I call... If i sound worried you know... You know if I dont even say anything I love it... You will truely be missed when we go our seporate ways... You will be one of the people that will be the hardest for me to walk away from... I know that will be hard but I will have to... So this is goodbye...

2004-04-12T19:49:00.000-04:00

Ya so the previous blog.. Its how i was feeling at the moment... Thats what I write how I feel that moment if Im pissed you will be able to tell so If your a person that reads these just for fun Im not!

2004-04-12T19:00:00.000-04:00

Ya soo enlightenment...

Im sick of feeling like shit 24/7

Im sick of having to put on a fake smile and trying to get through the day

I hate being in this slump I just wanna get out

I hate never being happy

I hate always being the one cheering other people up... Why cant they see through all my fakeness and figure out was wrong... Do I just put on that great of an act? are people just not that concerned? Or do they notice and are just afraid to ask?

I hate always being the friend not the "one" ya it sounds corny but so what? Who fuckin cares?

I hate doing things to please other people? Why cant I just say what Im truely feeling!! It makes me so mad

I hate being the one the family takes out all their anger out on... Why do I get all the shit put on me? Why if the sister fucks up you take your anger out on me? Do YOU think it doesnt effect me as much cause I dont let you see it! God I just want to get away... Im not the one that doesnt behave.. Im not the one screwing up my life... Im not the one that cheated... Or Im not the one that locks herself up in a room all day just not to deal with assholes... Im not the one that cant just sit still and do one thing right... Im not the one that went into the hospital for a month... Im not the one that put us here.... Im the one that stays home and babysits... Im the one that goes to the store... Im the one picking up the little sister and brother... Why yell at me?? Why me?

I hate my big brother saying hes happy cause I looked so happy in the pictures when truely It was all an illusion... That just makes me feel worse...

I hate losing friends left and right just because I get sick of them and listening to their STUPID guy problems and I want to punch them in the face and tell them to get a reality check and most of these people wont be in their life in 5years... People grow up... Problems get alot worse... I found this out this summer and I feel like I cant go back to the way I was so care free... Im always worried about something happening... I almost lost two people in my life this summer are close to me... One was the person I fight with the most but still if I lost her I dont think I would be here right now...

Well thats how I feel right now.. Buhbye

2004-04-04T20:23:00.000-04:00

This weekend was extreamly sooo awsomely fun!*smiley face* Friday was movies and dinner wit my girls... Robin droppin allllll the popcorn might have been the best part of that... Her getting grounded was sooo gay! O well lol you got out of it finally! woohoo! O we also got our nails did! They came out sooo good! Then saturday was prom... During the day I didnt do much other than go online... Then at 3 everything start goin in overdrive... At 3 I went to get my hair done... First I had to wait for my moms haircut to be done... Then she started my hair!! I loved it!! Then around 5 I got my dress on and Robin came up! God do I love that wee little freshman haha! Shes such a good friend! Then at 5:30 it was off to Kelseys! woohoo! Meet Christina there too! soo much fun! Kelseys dad dressed up as a shover hehe... Then the prom was great! Even though Tom cant dance!!!!!!! Ahh wat a site! Then after prom was fun... Hot Tubbin it at Kelseys! woohoo! Watchin a movie... Bad move! Cause we didnt fall asleep till 4 o and wait wat time did we need to get up at 7 harsh huh... Not only to get up but to be functioning for a hockey game! O well that brings me today... Got up super early and watched Kelseys game then had to play a game of my own... Then came home and showered chilled online for awhile... Then got my hair cut wicked short I love it! Then it was off to Robins to show her the prom pics! Then came home and thats where I am now... yup thats my life Im out buhbye

2004-04-02T15:04:00.000-05:00

Ya the week was fast!! Soo pumped prom 2marrow!! This is gunna be a great weekend!! woohoo!!! Cant wait... But this week... Tueday dance was pretty good! I gotz bruised knees *sad face* Then wed. was wicked boring nothing to do... Then thursday was ballet! god do I hate that class! Grr... But I hadnt danced in 3 weeks so I figured Id make an appearence haha Otherwise its been a boring week... Although tonight I gotz me a date *big smiley face* with some hott chicks haha Yvette, Robin and Beth cant wait haha... Sorry Derek! I still heart you! haha 2marrow is Prom!!! woohoo! Then sunday dont kno yet but prob saleepin! well im out buhbye

Prom ~ 1day
Josh gets up here ~ 7days

2004-03-29T21:00:00.000-05:00

Ya... come to this desion... Friday night didnt happen to me... We'll pretend like it didnt happen... WE can go back to the pattern of getting close then fallin away from each other... Well saturday's prom maybe something will happen... What am I saying? Am I trying to get my hopes up for nothing? NOTHING WILL EVER HAPPEN! WE WILL ONLY BE FRIENDS... I HAVE TO ACCEPT THIS AND I WILL!!!! so ya... Im so confused... Friday night cant wait haha right ladies haha Derek soo pumped to see you miss ya!! Well im out buhbye

Friday~ 4days
Prom~5days
Josh up here~11Days

2004-03-28T20:07:00.000-05:00

Ya so no more bomb threats Yay!!! and it was a short week which was good! I love professional days! woohoo! Went to dance on tuesday ya that was boring but when isnt it... But the fun was tryin to convice jess to ditch her gay date for prom to bad it didnt work *sad face* Ya... Then thursday night came around and I went to extravaganza wit the awsome girls Nicole, Megan, Jamie, Jill, Carrie, Heather, Ashley and Becky! woohoo! I love screaming at people when they sux haha! Its sooo fun! Then Friday we had off.... This concisted of going to get the prom dress fixed in fitchburg... Almost gettin in an accident stupid eyelashes in my eyes! Then it was off to the mall in Nashua... Saw like the whole school... Even tho on the way Kimmie Durkin starts screamin out the window to give me heartattack on the highway wen she passes me! O almost accident #2 ya!!!! So at the mall I got the prom shoes and jewlery... Then got home and went to extravaganza again... This time wit Shane, yvette and Dick... But yvette and dick left us *sad face* but Tim Crory joined us for a little while... Remembered some good times from camping woohoo!!! O yes and Shane has a shaking problem we need to get that fixed!!! Then after the extravagnza stayed for awhile to see big Tim or Sandy!! woohoo Then went sat in the car for awhile with Shane-o figured out Im very tickleish!! grrr O and Im a mental midget! woohoo can ya feel the love here people?? Then saturday rolled around... All I did was clean and do laundry what an exciting day uh-huh O ya and I watched the bruins game woohoo OT win HELL YA!!! Ya then the incodent that we wont talk about happened hah Robin! ya... So that was my weekend and today is on the road to being super boring as well so yeah.... Im out buhbye

2004-03-28T19:31:00.000-05:00

Ya so the past week has been boring... Went to dance... Woohoo boring as usual... The only good part was trying to convince Jess to ditch her Rich as her prom date... O well that didnt work very well... But it was a short week... Thursday was extravaganza with some of my awsome girls... Nicole, Megan, Jamie, Jill, Carrie, Heather, Ashley and Becky... Woohoo! I love cheering for people when they get off the stage cause they suck.... Whats in your head dude? Right Nicole! haha sooo funny... Then friday was NOOOOO SCHOOL!! woohooo!! I love 3day weekends... So friday was a busy day! First I got to watch my dawson's creek! Feels like I havent watched that shoe in yearssssss... Then it was off to get my prom dress fixed in Fitchburg... Then after that me and Beth went to the mall in NH... Although on the way up there I almost got in an accident because of Kimmie Gangsta Durkin! JK I LOVE YOU! just dont start screamin at me on the highway hahaha!!! Then at the mall we saw like our whole school... Well maybe not the whole school but alot of it haha... Got the prom shoes and the jewlery and these wicked cool new earing just for fun *smiley face* Then it was off to extravagnza again for the second night woohoo but this time it was with Yvette, Dick and Shane... After half tho Yvette and Dick left me and Shane but Tim Crory joined us for a lil bit... Remembered some good times lol Found out Im a mental midgit and Timmy needs to make me a special car.... HA then after I waited around to see Big Tim... Shane waited wit me... Then after I saw Big Tim me and Shane went in my car for awhile... It was wierd I dont kno what I think of this... O well then saturday was cleaning alllll day and doing laundry... Then at night watched the Bruins game... OT WIN HELL YA! #3 in the division! woohoo!! Then today was boring nothing to do but watch movies and then watched the NE regional finals BC won erge... Well that brings me to this Im out buhbye...

2004-03-23T14:40:00.000-05:00

Ya so the last few days havent been to exciting...
Saturday I chilled with Kara... Went to the mall to return some stuff! Shopped with no money thats not fun! U get to look at all the pretty things you want but not buy any of them *sad face* Then we went to Beth's bball tourney at the new GD high school! Its soo f-in huge! Even the speed bumps are huge! wooo no hands right Kara?? whoop whoop! Ya its soo big I want a new H.S.

Sunday was boring all I did was clean my room so now its spiffy clean... Then went to more of team Rumpus's bball games! Ya I really want that school... Then talked to *him* online a little... Its soo wierd.... But whatever mixed emotions on that subject... Most of the time *hes* great others hes sooo gay I have mental break downs because of it! Right Ashley! You are the best girlie!

Monday was back to school... I hate school... Espailly cause all of the wicked cool kids that say the school is gunna blow up at 12:10 so we get to go outside and its faarrrreeeeeeeeeeezing out!!! O and who decides to wear sandles and a teeshirt o me! Ya not cool! Then Mr. Mental Problems decides to go and flip reverses again and act like Mr. Friday... You might not understand what Im talking about o well... I dont kno wat to do about that one... Ill go to the big bro for advice... This might be interesting concidering BB hates *him* haha Then last night was interesting thats how I got the names Mr. Mental Problems and Mr. Friday because those are his split personalities!! Im so confused.... o well! well im out buhbye

2004-03-19T23:54:00.000-05:00

Ya soo... The last days... Lifted the block... I think that was making me feel worse... I feel sooo much better! Ya well today felt like it went by soo slow like forever and a day... Went to the dance! Kimmie D, Kat and Heidi left me *sad face* but they had a very resonable excuse! *smirking face* Ya had fun dancing woohoo espailly cause me and ashley were like the only junior girls there! haha! o well! Kara, Yvette and Ashley lets just kill her please lets do it!!! O ya and almost a huge fight! Me and Ashley left because the end of a lax stick boys?? not a smart move o well waiting to hear how that went over! O yes and I got Brendon to dance HIGHLIGHT OF THE NIGHT LET ME TELL U! your one dancing machine! well im out buhbye night

2004-03-17T21:43:00.000-05:00

Ok nothing intresting has happened but Im writing in this because I have a few things on my mind... I think this space is just making me worse... I miss being you friend and being able to talk to you about my problems... So Ashley and Christina I think Im better now! I think I can do it! I think I am once one of you get online as my support group! ha! well thats it buhbye

2004-03-17T18:32:00.000-05:00

YA!!!! snowday!!!! whooop whoooop!!! Boring day... caught up on my Dawson's Creek! Slept a little! woohooo! well That was my day! Well if anything intresting happens ill update ya! Happy St.Patty's Day! buhbye! ;)

2004-03-16T20:58:00.000-05:00

Ya so... Im not mad at *you* I just need my space... I just need to move on! I found someone new... no one could replace you but hes a good guy too so just want to inform everyone im not mad at *him* just want my space for a little bit is that too much to ask for?

2004-03-16T14:35:00.000-05:00

Today was boring... Ashley, Christina you to are my best friends at this school! Dont kno wat I would do with out you guys! I love you guys so much! Thanks for being there for me all the time... Espailly when I need it the most!! Plus u Mandi! Your the best always there 4 me! I love rock and roll! haha Megan and Ashley you are the two bestest girls from other schools! Meg miss ya! You are my pink gangsta! much love! Ashley *fword* Crank! dont know if I ever get through the bull shit without you! Love ya! sunday whoop whoop! :) Cant wait!
^You girls are the best Id be lost without all of you! I love you girlies!

Ya so today... saw *him* but Im staying strong and not doin anything towards him... I thought this would be hard but I never knew how much you were to me in my life... Well things change we grow, we move on! Thats that o well im out buhbye

As I leave here today
Apartment 108
I’ll always keep you in my heart.
Anderson is cold tonight,
the leaves are scattered on the ground.
I miss the seasons in the comfort of your smile.

Sometimes this song feels like a dream,
I’m waiting for someone just to wake me up from this life.
As I look out on these fairgrounds,
I remember how our family split apart.

I don’t think I ever told you,
but I know you always did your best
in the hard times that only made us stronger.

As I sit here all alone,
I wonder how I’m supposed to carry on
when you’re gone.

I’ll never be the same without you,
I love you more than you will ever know.
So maybe now you finally know
sometimes we’re helpless and alone,
but you can’t let it keep you weighted down.
You must go on.

Do you ever feel like crying?
Do you ever feel like giving up?
I raise my hands up towards the sky
and say this prayer for you tonight,
because nothing is impossible.

As I sit here all alone,
I wonder how I’m supposed to carry on
when you’re gone.

I’ll never be the same without you,
I love you more than you will ever know.
So maybe now you finally know:
sometimes we’re helpless and alone,
but you can’t let it keep you weighted down.
You must go on.

The hardest part isn’t finding what we need to be,
it’s being content with who we are.

Stay who you are.
*The Ataris "The Hero Dies In This One"*

2004-03-15T21:11:00.000-05:00

Ill never be the same without you,
I love you more than you will ever know.
So maybe now you finally know
Sometimes were helpless and alone,
But you cant let it keep you weighted down.
YOU MUST GO ON!
*The Ataris*

You will never know true happiness untill you have truly loved and you will never understand what pain really is untill you have lost it

How Did Things Escalate To This Point Of War? If I Remember Right These Things Werent Even Worth Fighting About!

Im sick of smiling
And so is my jaw
Cant you see my front is fallin down
Im sick of being someone Im not
Please get me outa this slump

It dont do me any good
Its just a waste of time
What use is it to you
Whats on my mind
If it aint coming out
Were not goin anywhere
So why cant I just tell you that I care?

It's got to be that can't eat, can't sleep, reach for the stars, over the fence world series kind of thing, right?

Forget everything that we have done
Erase me from your memory
Dont call, dont ask about me
Untill the day hell freezes over....

If your over me
Im already over you
If its all been done
What is left to do
How can you hang up
If the line is dead
If you wanna walk out
Im a step ahead
If our moving on
Im already gone.......

2004-03-15T20:47:00.000-05:00

Enlightenment:

I still have feelings for you... But I cant go on like this anymore... Through the years we hit the same path... I like you or you like me and it never works out so Im cuttin you out of my life... I dont kno how well this will go over because you are truely one of my closest friends... But this has to happen... I have to move on grow without you... Without you making me feel like crap by callin me wierd, stupid, tellin me things run in the family... I try talking to you as a friend... Its to wierd... This will do me some good... At least I hope it will... If I see you in the halls there will be nothing anymore... Ive hit depression and you make it worse... Taken the advice of the best friends I have and moving on...

2004-03-14T10:02:00.000-05:00

Ya so the past two weeks obv. nothing's happened cause i havent writen anything.. Dance as usual... I hate it... Hockey's over :( kinda depressed... O ya last friday the boys bball team lost o well... Otherwise the weeks have been yellin fighting the usual... But my favorite was last night wen a stupid bitch im me when she doesnt kno the facts! Please if you knew me I do not say hun,babe and ESPAILLY BABY!!! So please inform you boyfriend of what you told me and see what he says... And if hes an asshole he'll denie it o well screw him! espailly cause ive never meet him at all and only kno his name and screenname! Ahhh... o well! Today = skating = no more anger for awhile

Well im out buhbye

2004-02-29T18:54:00.000-05:00

Ya soo the week was the usual... Dance wanting to rip someones head off! Wouldnt that be funny!! Stupid bitch mind ur own buissness! Why do you even care!!! Ya I think Ive given up on him... It seems we come to this point everytime but then just grow apart then become close again then its the same pattern... Well Im gunna try to break the cycle... Otherwise a quite depressing week.. First on thursday the boys hockey team lost... Such a heartbreak... Stupid coach.... Then on Friday the Girls team lost there distric game as well... O well I hope the boys won today that means there off to the finals!! Woohoo!! o ya but last night BG eat shit!! You all suck ass!! Next time you think your the shit think again!!! HAHA o well that was my week summerised o well buhbye

2004-02-23T21:05:00.000-05:00

Ya the weekend was the usual... Saturday late night hockey! wicked fun!! NOT! i heart you ladies! Ya then Sunday awsome wicked good!!! Talked to Andy who I havent talked to in EVER!! His band Rocks!!!!!!! Then next it was last Lady Pat game wicked depressing!!!!!! We won tho wicked fun!!! Cotton Eyed Joe!!! WooHoo!! Bomb Drop sooo funny! Decicated to you Chris! Then today was wicked boring school as usual!!! But I saw *him* so I guess it made it kind of better!! well im out buhbye

www.purevolume.com/thesilentgame

^go to that and listen to the damn band!! They rock!

*~Its easier to say that I dont care for you anymore than to try to explain the reasons I actually care~*

2004-02-20T21:02:00.000-05:00

yaa ladies!! way to win our last home game!!! the flying wat?? V that was awsome!! the cotton eyed joe? wat!!! its ok kelsey and jamo you'll get it sometime!! Bomb drop wicked fun!!! haha i love you ladies soo much! haha fun times at kelseys!! Nicole u can do it!!!!!!!! haha lets cheer 4 her 2 do it!!! ya!!! then yesterday it was fuuunnn amy was here!! woohoo!! haha Then shoppin with beth and brenna laughin at all the wanna be gangstas!! I gotta love em!! Then today was hockey wit the lady pats! wicked fun! haha well that was my few day im out buhbye!

2004-02-18T15:07:00.000-05:00

Last night was sooooo funn!!!!!!! right ladies!!!!!!! First it was the spag dinner!! Wow that was interesting is all i got to say about Kayleighs outfit!! haha!! Then it was off to pick up hockey!!! WOW wicked fun! My new favorite thing to do!!! Can you say raping in the locker room!! right Nicole!! haha we deff need to do that again!! Just buzzardize the damn thing right Lisa haha! great fun! well game tonight!!! 840 gaetz!! b there! well im out buhbye!

2004-02-17T15:29:00.000-05:00

Ya... So yesterday day was sooo fun right ladies! haha plus Shane and Kimmies friend.. haha During the day was boring all I did was sleep then go online and get soo antcy me and Jamo decided to go up to the game early haha... Not to stalk anyone or anything... hehe The game was wicked good... Damn those sucky ref's!!! Its ok boys you kicked ass all season!!! Cant wait to watch playoffs!!! Ya... tonight is spag dinner and hockey for fun! haha Well Im out buhbye!

2004-02-15T20:14:00.000-05:00

Yah... so v-day suxed ass... lol while today i just slept and went to the bro's hockey game... Last night I was in a wicked bad mood and I dont kno why... I ended up blocking my cousin who I usually can talk to about whats wrong.. Sorry Josh I still heart u! Ya so thats my exciting life... Im out buhbye

2004-02-14T22:05:00.000-05:00

Yah... so... Last night dance got cancelled... But we won our game... If mr. fat ass would make us a school team then we would be #1 in the league... O well this will prove to fat ass that we should b made a team b4 lax... Maybe next year girls we can pay him off to make him... hehe Then today went to visit the great Jess... She is doing fine!! haha i heart u! lol Then it was off to dinner with the fam. Hotties there tho!! Well im out buhbye

2004-02-13T15:16:00.000-05:00

Always the fall back girl never the one.... Ya so I dunno Always happens with us... This time its gunna take some time....

2004-02-12T15:10:00.000-05:00

Ya get off my back bitch I have enough people at home to make me feel like shit I dont feel like adding you to the list!! Maybe if you werent such a clone and had ur own personality than you might not be so bitchy!!!

1day till va-k
2days till Valentines Day

2004-02-10T20:46:00.000-05:00

Yah.. so all I gota say is HELL FUCKIN YA LADY PATS!!!! woohoo we kicked ass girls!! Love ya!! Next Game friday 750!! b there then go to the dance! Woo hoo ya so valentines day is gunna be dud like usual... Actually Nicole is my valentine! haha Were loners its cool tho.. well im out 3days till Va-k :) buhbye

2004-02-09T14:31:00.000-05:00

Report Card Status...

US History Honors- C+
Trig/An Geometry- B-
Crime Scene Investigation- B-
Lab Chemistry- B
English 11- B
French 3- D

^pretty decent if u take away the D and Mr.Carlson actually game me the .4points grrr but I still have two quaters...

2004-02-08T21:44:00.000-05:00

Tonight sooo funny... CCD with Kara is how it went down... Wow do I not miss those... We had to turn on the maturity switch which didnt work because of the stupid things they had us do... Also there was a hott kid that we mostly stared down... While my phone kept beeping and we were cracking up... People must have thought we were insane o well... Well that was my interesting night other than during the day I watched 2periods of the all star hockey game... Anyone kno who won?? Im out buhbye

2004-02-07T23:54:00.000-05:00

WICKED FUN NIGHT RIGHT LADIES!!!! haha went to see miricle with christina, nicole, beth, amy, robin and jamo... wicked good movie... me amz and jamo talkin threw the whole thing... inbetween the staring included stareing at the hott kids behind us because nicole jinxed us and we ended up sitting in the front f-in row!!!

Amy-" When is half time in a hockey game?"
Me and Jamo laughin our asses off - " you idiot hockey doesnt have a half time"

wow good times good times!!! then off to friendlys... Wicked fun... I guess were to fat cause they needed to give us 2 tables haha All of us eating each others food yummy!!! Then it was off to run to the cars... Gettin yelled at to run fast fuckin white girl... yah good comment only ur white too... Whoa that girl is just to cool for me... Hopefully Robin isnt grounded for coming home at 1030?? O well Robin it was all worth it right?? well im out buhbye

2004-02-06T21:02:00.000-05:00

Enlightened...

I find it funny how a guy can come between people so easily... The minute that you stop buying into the whole crap that youve listened to over and over again... They decide to completely ignore you... They claim that they are always there to listen to you or that you will always be put befor the guy... Well obv. that doesnt happen because they want the idea of being loved... Even if all the do is argue... You try to be there for your friend but its come to the point I dont care anymore... The thing I get mad about is that now that this friend has found a new best friend that will deal with all the drama of the "love" that I just cant take listening to anymore.... Now Im am left out of things... It has come to the point where bailing out on me is now the stage we are on... I truely thought I had found a friend that was in our school that was actually going to be there no matter what... This friend was here for me threw the whole drama of this summer... The worst summer of my life that most people dont even kno about... I kno Im not a very trusting person... If someone asked me about my life they probly kno the basic's but not about the comosion of my family or what makes me worried... This is what scares me because this friend knows all of this... And Im just scared that if this person comes to the point of getting pissed off at me that she knows things that can be held against me... I feel like our friendship has come to the point of being "friends" because we know so much about each other... I dont know Ive been thinking about this for awhile... I dont kno what to do if anyone has any comments keep them to yourself because I really dont care for them unless I ask you...

*There comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters who never did and who always will *

*True friends are the people that are there for you unconditionally. They are the people that never question you and support you no matter what the circumstances are. They are the people worth living for.*

*How Did Things Escalate To This Point Of War? If I Remember Right These Things Werent Even Worth Fighting About!*

*Sometimes people think that they are so in love...
When its the first person that they have ever been with
I think its so stupid
So stupid.....*

*I feel like I'm spinning out of control
Try to focus but everything's twisted
And all alone I thought you would be there
To let me know I'm not alone
But in fact that's exactly what I was...*

*What do you do when you best friend goes competly insane over a guy? You parents cant get along for one minute? And your whole world is crumbling down right in front of you and you cant do anything about it? *

*A friend is someone to whom you can talk forever and still find things to say, but who doesn't always need words to know how you feel*

*Those who bring sunshine to others
cannot keep it for themselves*

2004-02-06T19:02:00.000-05:00

So yah... nothing big... just finished our huge science project... science project + big paper = HUMUNGO STRESS... otherwise nothing new.. except learned my costums 4 dance.. personally I hate my ballet one because its long blue and plain... ewww!!!! I just hate it.. well o well theres next year... o ya tomarrow cant wait goin to see miricle! :) im out buhbye

2004-02-03T14:46:00.000-05:00

yah so yesterday was fine... just another boring day... concisted of screamin at the boys.. going to beths game staying for half the Varsity game and then goin home and hitting the books.. well today was the same have ballet and goin 2 the boys game!! Kick their ass boys!! This win means playoffs :) yah!!!!

Which O.C. Character Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

ya saw that in Ashley's so I thought I might as well take the test! ;) ya well im out buhbye

2004-02-01T18:33:00.000-05:00

Yah.. so Pat frenzy has started... I could care less what happens... I kno Im not a football person... Yah but I went to see Brooklynn's hockey team play... Saw LeeAnn's cody.. hes a cutie.. Petafile tho right Lee? j to the k! Yah wat an exciting game.. Although Kara was there to help me make fun of all the parents that dont know the rules to hockey.. Very entertaining.... Also we learned that freshman like to wear alot of make-up up there I wanted to hand them face cloths for them to wash their faces :) o well... Im out buhbye mayb more lataz

2004-01-31T23:14:00.000-05:00

Just fuckin transerfer schools you only hang out wit those people neways....

2004-01-31T22:30:00.000-05:00

Yah... fun filled weekend so far.. Yesterday started off by playing pond hockey!! Always fun kickin little kids asses!!! 0:) Then it was off to pick up LeeAnn, Cassie, Christina and Nicole... After LeeAnn and Cassie almost try to kill all of us as Im pumping gas off to Mickey D's we went... At Mickey D's we saw some unsual tight pants and laughed at her!! Then off to the boys hockey game... So heart breaking they lost 4-3! Even though it shoulda been a tie cause the ref's sucked ass!!! sooo stupid... Although I got to see my beloved Jess S. We like attacked each other!!! Soo funny!! Also I got to see Dustin.. He is now kinda thuggish I find it very funny... Adam was there and he was funny as hell as usual... man do I miss those to boys wish they still went to NM... Also I saw Stephine... Same as usual... Kinda sad that we arent as close as befor cause she helped me threw one really hard time... Her ex was pretty cute 2 ;)... yah.. so that was Friday night.. Then tonight I went out to the movies.. Saw The Perfect Score... not so good.. except Matty is mighty cute!! Saw Kara wish I saw the bf tho to tell her what I thought of this fellow that sounds kinda stupid good thing shes making the right desion :) haha Well Im out buhbye

2004-01-29T20:49:00.000-05:00

FUCK YOU!!! is all i can say that explains the anger inside.....

2004-01-29T14:56:00.000-05:00

yeah.... so last night Lady Pat's lost.. :( very depressing! its ok ladies we'll get it back next friday!!! Skate Fast KICK ASS! is all i gotta say! yeah today was Trig final! wicked easy we'll now that ive jinxed that Ill prob get like an F--.... yeah I was thinkin about friendships Ive had threw the years... only a few have been there through think and thin... otherwise boyfriends.. distance.. other shit has made us lose contact and not be as close.. luckily this year ive been able to connect back with one of my wicked good friends... last year when she started going out with the love of her life we became distanced.. well this year in CSI that all changed now I can go 2 her with all my problems... although I have almost lost one of my best friends in the whole world... all she does is work and yea I kno Im privaliged to be able to have a car.. but also I believe you should not have to always put work first... all she seems to do is work these days which means we never can get together anymore.. or if we make plans she ends up bailing on me for a guy or it may not b bailed out 4 a guy but ends up going out with him anyways... but the good thing threw this I realized I have sooo many other really good friends... Also through her I made some also wicked good friends such as Yvette and Ashley!!! They are greatest I can relate to them soo well!! I f-word heart them! ;) haha well im out

2004-01-28T14:37:00.000-05:00

Hey guys... so ya I dont know what to write in these types of things cause I dont tell many people what I think.... yeah so Tonight I have a Lady Pat's game! Lets go girls! Hopefully it will get cancelled so when it is reschedualed Jamo can play :) that way we have a better chance. If its not cancelled and you read this tonight 830 Fitchburg Gaetz Arena come see us! woohooo! Yeah on Monday on Everwood they had it on anerixia.... guess how well that went over... I just telling my mom that I wanted one day without dealing with a that subject was irrisponsiable because she freaked out... It went over bad... I just keep thinking only one more year left of being here hehe Well till I go to collage... We picked out our classes for next year!! Scary buissness because its one more step closer to then end of my highschool years :( o well im out buhbye